Tried To Quit Smoking

It’s not that I wanted to hurt you
I just didn’t care if I did

It is not that I just forgot you
Also, I forgot everything else

It is not that I do not love you
It’s just that I hate everyone

It’s not that I wanted to hurt you
I just didn’t care if I did

What I did, I did – who I am, I am
Then a stupid kid, now a stupid man
And if I never got my chance to be young
Then what stood between me and making myself one?
What alien at my back and with what ray gun?
When I picked up this pen, it was twenty one one
Why was I screaming, “Kill kill kill Ronald Reagan?”
Again and again, “Kill kill Ronald Reagan”
But I made my bed, now we’re fucking in it
You gotta be fucking in it to win it